What is on my heart tonight

Wow what a few crazy couple of weeks. As I get ready to start school in a few hours I should probably be asleep but for some reason I can’t seem to make myself tired so I wanted to write. Writing has become something I enjoy more and more as of late. It’s so cool and I’m really excited about what is going on in my life personally and those around me. Where do I even start with what is on my mind. There really is no beginning or end, just random thoughts going through my head (so bear yourself for a nicely disorganized post ).

I’m pretty excited to be back up at Toccoa Falls College. While coming back up here means the return to school, I love being back in the mountains. I have already met a bunch of new people and gotten a chance to reconnect with some old friends. Of course, this transition has been a little rough because even though I can go back home, I now live a majority of the time up here. I had thought that moving back up would be easier the second time, but let me tell you it is not at all. Leaving my family has bee tough. Leaving the security of home is tough. Not nearly as tough as last year though. Don’t get me wrong, I love where I am, but as with anyone I still miss people back home.

I’m excited that Dive Deep is exploding in front of me. From favor on our ministry to potential partnerships, wow. A year and a half ago when God gave me the idea to start Dive Deep, I never ever thought the ministry would grow like this. It is a literal roller coaster ride and I am overwelmed by what God is doing. I not only get a chance to be front seat to watch what he is doing with the ministry, but also what he is doing in our staff. I don’t think words can convey what I’m feeling at the moment, but all I know is that God is driving and we are along for the ride. I think this feeling is the joy that we are told about in the Bible.

Have you ever felt like you can’t get enough of God? Like have you ever felt like you want so much more of God and have no clue where to start digging in? That is kindof how I am feeling at this season in my life. I want so much more of God. For a while I think I fell into a semi contentness (I don’t even know if that is a word) with my faith because I was unsure of what was around the next corner. I didn’t want to leave the safety net that I had constructed, but that all changed over the summer. My trust has been strenghthened and I am so hungry for God. I’m like a starving child who desperatly wants to be fed more and more. I want to be an all consuming fire and someone who lives out my life for God in everything. There is something vastly different in my heart and I think it is this hunger that is new to me. I have always wanted to grow deeper but never had this feeling. I can’t even explain it. I just want to sit at the feet of God and just be in his presence all the time.

Another thing I’m excited about is the new atmosphere I feel on campus. Last year this was a very dark place. The enemy had so many strongholds here that the presence of God was seemingly absent from this campus (I know He was here but we as a campus were not reflecting it). This year, its different and I know God is in it.

God, you know what your doing. We don’t. I don’t. I just know that I get to sit and be a part of it. Oh my brothers and sisters how I wish I could put into words how good this feeling that God has given me is. I want you to have it too. It is one of the best feelings in the world. It’s love, grace, peace, and joy all wrapped into one emotion.

I challenge you to go after this. If you don’t know where to start, I suggest searching your heart for area’s that you haven’t given God and give them up to him. Then just ask him what it is that he would have you do. I pray that you would experience this outpouring of the overwhelming since of God so that you could share it with others.

May God be with you and over you brothers and sisters. Thank you for your continued prayers and if there is anything I can pray for you about let me know.

To God be the glory,

Kyle